stucked between financial and learning.. i'm feeling so stoney for the past one month.. haven accomplish as much as my other pals.. learning is wat i suppose to do now.. but currently i'm sitting aimlessly waiting for cust to walk-in... no cust=learning stops.. not expecting to be spoon fed.. but at least i hope to tag around to learn.. get involve wif projects together wif my colleagues... has hands-on experience.. but no.. i waiting for the impossible.. waiting for cust to come in n 'tok' to me before i get to move on.. if not.. occasionally my boss will pass me sth to follow up.. i jux get to sit n listen to how he presents.. due to the insufficient knowledge i have.. i dun get to present myself to the cust.. not dat i wana learn everything at one go... cos dere's more to it and i cant rush thru the process.. but at least i wana noe wat i'm here for..
On the other hand.. no cust= no income.. basic can probably cover my expenses... no spare for contribution to the family, leisure, n even savings.. so wat shld i do next?? at this moment.. i can onli choose either one.. if i can exchange learnin experience by forgoing extra cash... i have no choice but to say 'yes'.. cos i can no longer wait for things to happen..
i typed this entry to let my fellow readers understd the unexplainable stress i'm goin thru.. so pls dun tink is workload dat is tiring me out... cos i haf NO workload at all...
another unpleasant entry... i'm sorry readers.. i'm just ranting once again..
